After 6 months…

“I started the coaching process because I was doing ok but had a nagging sense that something was holding me back and I couldn’t (despite having a high degree of self-awareness and a fair bit of insight into developmental stages and a lot of coaching experience) figure out how to release some shackles that were holding me back. It was like driving a powerful car with the brakes on. Knowing about it isn’t always helpful in knowing how to resolve it. I was also keen to find a way to stretch my consciousness into something new - put my foot down on the open road and like the autobahn there’s not that many places you can actually do that in my day to day life.

Much of the ‘work’ for me has been descending through the earlier developmental stages where i had some unresolved issues that were not so significant that they were causing major issues but were enough to be unsettling and holding me back. I knew I had issues at various early stages eg 3.0 around expertise and knowledge, I didn’t have much stuff at 3.5 but had an unstable ability to hold multiple perspectives - it would come and go. More stuff surfaced as we went back in time to resolve the frozen time capsules and chords.

Why did I want to work with you?

I’ve worked with a few coaches including developmental ones and some of those experiences have been better than others. I’ve made small steps (an increment at a time). They’ve all felt quite cognitive as an experience and I was aware at the time I started considering something new that what I needed was not (just) cognitive, I needed to tap into something more somatic and psychic or spiritual that operated in a different way. In the IE course each time I felt grounded and magnetised and I knew this was something different. I had a sense that this was something I needed to do, I couldn't not do it, I was called to it.

I knew you’d be stretching cognitively, intellectually (you’re super speedy and vastly knowledgeable) and I was attracted to the breadth of the approach and some of the simplicity and the precision of the interventions.

I like that you’re not arrogant even though you’re one of the brightest clever clogs I know! It’s been a combo of brain, body, emotion, meditation, consciousness for me.

What we did that seemed most helpful…

I've had a few epiphanies along the way, too many to mention but some highlights have been cutting the chords, learning to ground, generalising constructs, stepping into and out of systems, merging and dissociating personality patterns.

Where am I now?

Some of the struggles you’ve helped me overcome in this few months - I mean completely resolved ‘dissipated’ poof and not just ‘working on’, mostly in less than 2 minutes each time lol - and you say it isn’t magic!

Fears of putting myself out there, what will people think etc - now don’t seem to have any fears, which briefly manifested as an extreme toddler into everything and no care for any other but now has calmed again

Stabilising a multi-perspectival view

I reintroduced some capacities I had but wasn’t accessing - I was actively resisting 3.5 (Achiever) visions/goals/plans and not utilising systemic capacity although not sure why), which you helped me resolve by stepping out of the system and this brought so much capacity back on line instantaneously.

I hit a wall of “I don’t know anything” no knowledge/all knowledge is available to everyone - “nothing to say” which you helped me resolve with “what do you know”

We went down into early stages - released energy cords in that wow meditation which went on for eternity and felt like I’d landed back in my body for the first time ever perhaps (this was deep and at times frightening for me and I needed the compassionate safety you provided) and then learnt about grounding.

You called out the shadow/projection of needing to feel valued, and also had that bizarre experience with the guy who triggered me when he said he couldn’t connect with me or anything I was saying, which was all painful at the time but opened up a load of stuff about valuing self (for own sake- no longer requiring validation) and managing own energy/releasing others energies/knowing my own edges, stepping into my power and respecting others boundaries (inc energetic ones).

- Opened up a load of stuff about love which shifted from being something that comes from self to self and morphed to love as infusion, oneness, a different vibration/felt sense.

- Opened up more into 6.0 (Universal Mind) and formless emptiness, held a couple of light(ish) enquiries into death and soul journeys and tested out how it was to tell my old story without any triggers or charge.

- I’ve transformed but also learnt along the way, holding some meta perspectives about what’s actually happening and some of the theory behind the approaches and tools.

In hindsight it was like having narrow height up to 5.5 (Transpersonal Mind) and unstable foundations especially at 1.0 (Impulsive), 1.5 (Egocentric) and 2.0 (Rule Oriented). I’m pretty sure I was stuck with a centre of gravity of 5.0 (Construct Aware) because of that for about 5 years. And all of my developmental gaps and constraints were entirely resolved in 12 weeks (max) once we got to decent emotional regulation and stabilising that multi-perspectival 4.0. The clean up of the early stages has helped me step into a true me, no longer held back by other’s expectations, I feel powerful, creative. I don’t have loneliness or feel any struggle or suffering or fear. I don’t have this inability to hold emotions back, I’m not avoiding them or getting caught out by them, I feel calm and stable. All those capacities I was avoiding or unable to access came back on line and I can draw on what I need when I need it. I’ve dropped down out of the lofty clouds and got back into my body so I’m operating across the whole range rather than distancing myself from more concrete and some subtle stuff eg not really caring about money, my body, not wanting to feel feelings (like they were stupid), not wanting to make plans or set goals etc (too constraining). I can do and be ‘Debbie’ and know that’s not it, I can cry with the incredible beauty of a rainbow or a sunset and experience a deeply grounded, sensory human-being-ness, whilst feeling connected, expansive, loving spaciousness that is everything. I am able to move freely, liberated.

It sounds too good to be true when I read it back, but it’s the truth of my experience and it’s been exactly what I needed.

I’m the creator of my experience, held in infinite consciousness, unfolding and expanding exponentially in every moment. Mind blown, consciousness expanded, life transformed.”

Debbie Fisher

After 1 year…

“I’ve been working with Anand for a year, both 1-to-1 and in group but don’t let the length of time imply that progress has been slow, it’s been immense and even felt miraculous at times!

I engaged Initially on the Inner Entrepreneur course and was immediately impressed with Anand’s extensive knowledge on adult development and breadth of understanding across many subjects, but it was his ability to cut through and see dissonance or disconnection in me and others, in a way that I haven’t previously experienced that made me convinced I needed to do more work with him.

I was already doing reasonably well so it wasn’t a case of alleviating struggle but I had areas of early arrested development (1.0, 1.5, 2.0) that I hadn’t been able to clean up on my own. Going through and cleaning up, doing the shadow work, facing into the early developmental issues sounds like it would have been hard work but it was surprisingly easy with Anand’s skilful guidance, using the safety and emotional regulation tools and my later stage capacities to release and resolve.

I’ve stabilised my wobbly 5.0 (Construct aware stage) and early 5.5 (Transpersonal stage) into a mature, creative comfortable 5.5 and am gently unfolding into 6.0 (Universal stage) in what feels like a very organic exquisite way. I’d not done all the inclusion of the subtle stage so working through to fully reintegrate all the stages leaving nothing out has brought me back to realising my wholeness.

I’ve never been more conscious, more at ease, fully present, more creative and I believe we need more of this kind of work in the world. We all need to be more conscious and allow our expansion to continue. Those of us who are inclined towards helping others to expand their awareness have much work to do and cleaning up our own stuff is essential for us to do that work well; effectively, ethically and sustainably.

I am a different version of my self since I started this work with Anand. The issue with shadow work is it’s so hard to see and resolve, the ego/mind does a very impressive job of fighting to stay in charge and being able to surface and resolve the most fundamental layers requires, knowledge, skill, mastery, safety, compassion, humility. Anand offered me all this with a balance of challenge and patience that’s made deep, ‘difficult’ work feel easy and joyful. It’s been worth far more than the money I’ve invested. I’m beyond grateful to him and for the synchronicity that introduced me to him. A master craftsman, a magician, a genius.”

Debbie Fisher